I hate having drinking dreams. Had another one last night. Felt so real. It was about me justifying breaking my streak. I'm not even sure if I actually drank in the dream or if it was about me thinking of breaking my streak. Either way I felt disappointed, like it didn't make sense. Was glad … Continue reading I was dreaming, then I wasn’t
Less than two hours from now, I will reach the one hundred days mark of being alcohol free. I'm really, really tired tonight, so I don't particularly feel like celebrating, per se, but I am happy about it. I have no doubt about hitting it. And, I know that I am going to keep counting. … Continue reading One Hundred Days
Wow. It just occurred to me to check my nomo sobriety clock. Was pleasantly surprised to see this pop up. My nomo sobriety clock count for today Ninety-one days. It first showed 90 days but then I realized I was about fifteen minutes away from my zero hour (11:03 pm). So I waited. It felt … Continue reading Am I out of warranty?
This is awful right, to feel somewhat envious of people who know for certain that alcohol is wrong for them? I don't know why but I'm having major quakes right now inside. I can rationalize how good it is to be alcohol-free, how sobriety helps me be a better me, but there's still this voice … Continue reading Masochistic Was the Poet
I’m torn. Today is a holiday and I really want to keep working on clearing the clutter in my house (I'm trying to do the Marie Kondo thing starting with my clothes which in itself is a huge project—where did all these come from???). It already feels better in my bedroom to have organized the … Continue reading Day 82
...and I can still smell the fresh ... hangover?? I know that those weren't exactly the words with which Old Rose began her reminiscent tale, but bear with me. I had been fascinated by the story of the R. M. S. Titanic long before James Cameron's movie came out—even before Robert Ballard and crew discovered the ship's remains … Continue reading It’s been 34 days…
Wow. I hadn't meant to go this long without writing. I've had lots of thoughts and have been learning lots of stuff, so much so that my mind has gotten a bit flooded. It feels like the Three Week Rule got to me again. I started off so strong with this blog, churning out posts … Continue reading Been here before, but maybe—hopefully?—not again